Did you hear the one about the fat lady who....?

Well the last post went over like vegetable night with my kids.

Let's try this again shall we? NO, not a repeat of the last post. Something entirely different.

I've struggled and struggled with how to write this post. I started out writing the history behind the news I'm about to share, but it became so danged mopey. Besides, it would take several pages and we all know I'm long winded already. :-)

Then I tried to take the funny route, but just not sure how to go about that because in reality the whole thing is not funny.

So the only way I can do this is to just jump into it and go from there.

On March 10th I am going to have gastric bypass surgery.

I know all the possible complications. I know all the difficulties, horror stories and what ifs.

But I also know that I've been overweight all my life, struggled with an eating disorder for 13 years and I am now morbidly obese and have been for 10 years.

I've tried every diet, lifestyle change, and pill faithfully. Even medicine, good old excercise and low-caloric intake. Bottom line, my years of abusing my body have made it very resistant to anything I do. I've seen Dieticians, Endocrinologists and Nutritionists. They all agree.

1 1/2 years ago my Dr. finally agreed we need to pursue this avenue (he was very much against it before). Last year we sent in a request, feeling we had met all the guidelines and requirements only to have my insurance company deny me.

At first I was depressed, then I just became numb. I wouldn't discuss it at all. I said over and over that I wasn't mad at God, He is in control after all and He is good no matter what. That is what my mind and mouth said, but my actions spoke differently. I pulled away and withdrew from our daily talks.

It took time but I've since crawled out of the pit of self pity and despair and quietly walked back towards the Father in timid trust.

I am excited beyond any words I could put on this blog. I am in no way afraid or worried. I am at complete peace.

I am looking forward to the many changes this will bring to my life. Mostly I will once again want to be active with my family. See I usually stay home and read or write when they go for a bike ride or head to the park. So I have 2 goals that I want to share here with you:

1. Going bike riding with my family.
WITHOUT the image of a circus elephant riding around in my mind. :)

and...

2. Going horseback riding with my daughter.
WITHOUT the poor horse crying "Why me Lord?!?!" when I try to saddle up. :)

And I am having just as much trouble ending the dang post as I did starting it.....

Okay, bye!

25 comments:

  1. Dana I am SO excited for you! SO SO SO SO SO excited!

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  2. "It took time but I've since crawled out of the pit of self pity and despair and quietly walked back towards the Father in timid trust."

    What a beautiful picture!

    Dana, I am beyond excited for you! I read that you were going to do this and tears came to my eyes. I will be praying for you through this whole process and I can't wait to see you on the other side. You have always been an example of someone who trusts God and lives their life as a servant of Him and I know that He is doing amazing things in you and through you to reach out to other people. He already has shown me that through you! Love you!

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  3. God is good. Dana, it makes me cry to say this but we did it... sounds weird but we did it... well He did it. i am so happy for you and so glad you are at peace. so have the surgery and then come babysit for me!!! you got two weeks off ;-)

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  4. Day-na

    This is great news! And having had major surgery that changed MY life in July '07 - I know JUST how excited you are!!!!!

    But don't, under ANY circumstances DON'T do the horseriding thing ...

    http://chemicalsblog.blogspot.com/2007/08/white-knuckle-ride-in-guess-where-co.html

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  5. Jessica,
    ME TOO!!!! Thanks, I love having friends who are so positive and supportive!!

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  6. Karie,
    Thanks, that is exactly what I did.

    YOU can't wait to see the other side? Girl, I can't wait to see all my sides on the other side! :)

    Love you too!

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  7. Courtney,
    Amen girl! WE MADE IT! Makes me cry to think of it too, I mean last year was one of the hardest I have ever had to survive spiritually, physically and mentally. I love you sweet girl! I will be more than glad to baby sit!

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  8. Ali,
    Did you have this same surgery or something different? Thanks for the support friend!

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  9. I had a hysterectomy :-)
    (Way-hey! I'm neutered!!)

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  10. good for you!!

    and looking at it from a purely shallow and materialistic point of view, the added bonus will be purchasing a whole new wardrobe, complete with short skirts, slinky dresses, jeans without elastic waists, kicky new shoes!!!

    and the new shoes should be red!!

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  11. Jenn,
    You'd better believe I am looking forward to a new wardrobe!

    New shoes and all!
    :)

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  12. Ali,
    I want one of those too!! I am so jealous~~

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  13. Day-na ... I don't blame you - best thing I ever had done.

    Sent you mail ...

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  14. Dana, I have a friend IRL who is going to undergo the same surgery this spring. I am excited for her, and now for you too!!

    You will be in my prayers for no complications and renewed health. (((HUGS)))

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  15. Jenni,
    I am so excited...thank you for your prayers!

    (((hugs back)))

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  16. That's awesome! And if you need a workout buddy, many afternoons I can be found at Memorial Park or in the CLC! :)

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  17. Well, I am still going to answer on your post about the garage. It has really made me think. I am just about to the point to respond.

    I am so excited for you. I know you have waited along time.

    I thought Karen had come back from the dead from the two phone messages I had today, but when Karen talked about her boss Don, I thought hmm...this must be Dana. By the way, why do birds suddenly appear every time you are near?

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  18. Jen,
    Thank you! Denise and I talked about walking together in the evenings...I haven't thought about the E word...yet. :) Appreciate the offer and will remember it!

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  19. Nancy,
    I hope you do! I would love to hear what you think...

    Thanks Nancy, I am excited...

    Well there's a compliment if you thought it was Karen...

    It's because -
    Just like me, they long to be, close to you!

    Ah, ah, ah aaaaah, close to you.

    I'll sing it to you tomorrow.

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  20. I heard you talking about bicycling and horse back riding at lunch - but I was a little lost - now all the conversation makes sense.

    I'm excited for you! It's really going to happen. Wow!

    LMS

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  21. That's awesome Dana! I have wanted this for my dad for several years now - his doctor is not on board yet. I'd love to hear more about your journey soon and I am so excited for the way this will change your life!

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  22. Linda,
    I'm sorry I thought you knew...IT is really going to happen!!!

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  23. Carissa!
    You've been missed my friend! I will pray for your dad. Some doctors are very much against it. He may have to go out on his own. Start by seeing a surgeon who specializes in this area and he can tell him the steps to take. For instance, my surgeon recommends a doctor to send you to that can detail the "medically supervised diet" most insurances require. I didn't need him, but he has several listed.

    I look forward to the journey as well...

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  24. WOW, so THIS is the surgery. COOL!! I'm very happy for you! I've seen other people go through it with much success. Ten years. Wow. How wonderful that you finally get to do this and it's SO close! I'll be thinking about you! I'm sure everything will be GREAT!! Hugs = ]

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  25. Citlali,
    Thank you so much. It has been a long battle, glad to have a light at the end of the tunnel. Thanks for the hugs, they are needed!!

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